Do I dare admit that this is my toughest commandment? I tend to be one of those people who thinks she can do it all by herself. I know, because of experiences in my life, that God's got my back. I have no doubt of that--case in point. My problem is putting myself in the position where I willingly give it and ask for help. I tend to stay on the safer side of things.
When I truly trust in God, though, I know that that requires me to step into the darkness (the unknown) sometimes. The trip to Japan was the perfect example of this. That was a HUGE trial of my faith. I was so happy to see that Heavenly Father had my back the entire way.
I view that trip as such a miracle that there is no way I can deny there is a God.
When I look at that, I realize that that's not the only example of that. For those who truly know me, it should be clear that my entire life (day to day) is a miracle. The fact that someone as weak as me can raise this family is a miracle in and of itself. It's just not possible without a loving God to strengthen and guide me.
If I don't trust Him, I will fall apart. Along with this, though, I know that I have a long way to go in this area as well. The more I trust and am willing to take those steps in following Him, the more I am able to do and the more capable I become.
To be honest, it's kind of scary, but I know I can do better.