I have known that this change in my behavior has needed to take place for a VERY long time. I just haven't known how to go about it. I'm still not sure that I do, but I'm hoping that I'm preparing myself for the next step.
As I showered this morning, I prayed for answers. As I brushed my teeth, again, a prayer in my mind to know what it is I should do next. So far, there have been no clear, this-is-what-you-do-next answers. Living in this instant gratification society, darn it! I want my answers NOW! Well...they're not coming.
I went into my little secret corner of the world and turned to the scriptures. I'm reading Alma 57 today. Timing is just amazing. Moroni's writing about his interactions with Ammoron. Did you ever think about Ammoron's name before? "Am Moron?"
Well, it starts out that Ammoron's feeling a bit desperate for an increase to the numbers of his army and he knows that Moroni's got quite a few of them locked away in safe keeping as prisoners of war. He makes the deal that if Moroni'll give him back his men, he'll give him the city of Antiparah that Ammoron's army has overtaken recently.
I'm sorry, but DUH! Moroni's got the upper hand here for sure. He could easily keep the men AND overtake Antiparah. That's not rocket science, so of course, he refuses Am Moron's offer, keeps the men, and goes ahead and takes his army to the city--that's all he has to do is take them to the city--and the bad guys are so scared that they take off, so the city Antiparah is taken without any kind of force needed at all.
While I read, I take notes. After reading verse four, I wrote the title and first line of this post--Don't sit and stew. Up and do. Moroni doesn't sit around waiting; the answer's about as clear as it's going to be, so he goes for it and benefits for doing so. Sometimes it seems that I sit and stew WAY too long. I sit around waiting for the answers for so long, thinking that they're just going to be handed to me, that I miss the most important steps that could lead me in the direction to receive the very answers I'm looking for--those that require me to act on the information I've already received.
Hmm....It seems that not everything in life's going to be handed to me on a silver platter. Darn it! It seems that, like me, God wants His children to learn to be independent too.